We all wanted an update
Aimee wanted an update
triangulated
I wasn't angry at her for a minute or a day or a week
That wouldn't last
The Sheriff was out of range
No service of course and we were sitting
Sitting in the hot sun waiting
I kept going over and over each scenario
Chris and Peg sat with Scott and I on the curb
We didn't know what to do and I couldn't do anything
it wasn't like him
We waited and waited
His heart maybe?
The food
the drinking
Was he loaded?
Was he on mushrooms and had a seizure?
What the hell happened?
When Teless was 16 Mike was high on mushrooms and really loaded and he had a seizure and had to call 911
He was stuck between the toilet and the wall
I was so fucking pissed
Scott had do go to work the next day
Everyone wanted to do something
Help search the forest
Like in the movies
We sat on the curb
I talked a bit of shit about The failed tour
Scott Cullen always said I was such a bitch
Yeah I will call a fucker out
I actually expected more I guess than the drinking and all night party
Shitty bands
I expected Mike to be a dad on occasion
Or a loving husband
So I flirted and was needy
I couldn't get him to give a shit
But I loved him more than anything
I know that
In the end he knew it
I told him all the time
But I hurt him and he hurt me
23 years is a long time
