Monday, October 23, 2017

I can't remember who I talked to that day 
Tuesday 
Was it Tuesday? 
The heaviness on me and the fear 
The worry for Teless 
All I could think of was no way, no FUCKING way
Where do I go?
The police station was closed 
I entered city hall
Brandie and DD wanted to bring Teless
The shock was overwhelming me and I couldn't think
I was crying with so much fear 
Chris and Peg were coming to meet me 
It was so surreal 
It's not even in the realm of understanding I guess 
The fear 
Hi my husband is missing in the Tillimook forest what do I do?  
They looked at me with confusion and said go to the port. 
We drove to the port, the Spruce Goose is there and the correctional facility, and parole and probation. 
The sun was out and all I could think is that the weather is good
If Mike is alive he can survive the night 
He knows how to survive 
What was in his pocket 
He always had a P-38 in his pocket 
Military can opener 
I know he had a knife 
Did he have water? 
He couldn't be without coffee 
He always had a thermos