Five years ago
I was begging Mike to go to counseling
To work on things
To give me a sixty second hug and mean it
I wasn't perfect
I had my own baggage
I messed up
He messed up
It was coming upon our 20 year anniversary
He was obsessed with the computer and his phone
October 31st 1992 we were married
Mid life crazy
Peri menopause
Alcoholism
Porn addiction
I would drop him off and have coffee
Saturday mornings
Pick him up after practice
I would wait
I'd wake up from the couch
His head bobbling drunk and that dumb drunk talk
I have a hundred pictures of him mouth wide open
Drunk talk